I have to admit

Blogging is not a priority right now.

Jacob is leaving next month for basic. Time sees so fleeting right now. I’m really trying to focus my time and energy into my family.


Some updates for us:

Jacob has Drill this weekend.

We rode on Amtrak this past weekend! Peter loved it!

Peter trick or treated for the first time yesterday and really enjoyed it. He hid his face every time he sees something scary. He would duck his head into Jacob’s neck. How I wish I could just be carried and I could hid away from my fears like a two year old.

I’m going slowly on the weight loss, but I’m STILL losing, and that’s the point. I’m at 209.4 pounds today! That’s a loss of 9 pounds this month! I’ll take it! 207 is my 10% goal! Whoop-whoop! I’m going to make my family clap for me (because I need that feedback).

Peter is growing and pushing boundaries. It’s amazing to see how his brain works, but because of this growth… he’s seen a lot of time-out lately. In fact, he’s seen so much time-out that he put one of his Army Man in Time-out for shooting another Army Man (that was funny).

Peter can hop on one foot, multiple times. He’s two and a half! That’s some mad skills for him.

He’s really into cutting with scissors right now. So much so, we have to hid the scissors.

Today Peter was telling me a story while I was busy fixing lunch. I had to stop and give him my full attention when he told me to, “Look at me (pointed to his face) in the eyes.” Something that we say to him when we have something important to say. So funny, sweet, and serious.

Our dog is staying with a family friend until Jacob comes back. We said goodbye to him this past weekend. If he gets along really well with them, he may stay with them forever. We’re a little sad about it.

I’m going down to Topeka next week to stay with our BIL, SIL, and nephew. SIL is 38 weeks pregnant and I’m going to come down and clean and do whatever she wants for two days. This is also my last big break from Peter before Jacob leaves and is only the three time I’ve left him this long!

Peter is going to test out a back up daycare this week. We are just going to visit the first time, leave for an hour the second time, 4 hours the next time, and then full day after that. I’m hoping for a smooth transition.

Tomorrow is the next ICAN meeting. ::sigh:: I love ICAN, but hate it all at once. I love it’s a safe place to talk about Peter’s birth, I hate that it’s a monthly reminder of the c-section and it’s still really painful to me. Tomorrow is also a little nerve-racking because I’m going to verbally tell Peter’s birth story out loud… hopefully… if I don’t pass out first. ::weak smile::

We are buying our Christmas presents now. We want to have everything done before Jacob leaves December 7th. We will be celebrating St. Nicholas’ feast day this year (December 6th), instead of Santa Claus.

We are talking of holiday plans and letting family members know of our plans, so it’s not surprising when Jacob’s gone.

We are also discussing Jacob’s leave date. Who’s going to the airport, where we are going to say goodbye, how we are going to explain to Peter…

I’ve been crying a lot lately. A lot. I feel overly emotional about everything right now.

We got an iPod and I’m in LOVE. Seriously love this product.

Jacob and I are participating in a Bible Study about the new translations of the Mass. I’m really enjoying it! I’m also glad it’s only 5 weeks so Jacob and I could go together and have it finished before he leaves.



That’s some highlights about us for now. I’m hoping to have another photo post soon! We’ve been taking a lot of photos lately!



Moving: The countdown continues

As we hover just above two weeks before moving I find myself taking deep breathes and wiping away tears. I’m nervous about moving. How it will affect Peter, how it will be living in my parent’s basement, how Jacob will transition over to the military…

We still have a lot to do.

The three come on, THREE pages list of things the apartment complex wants us to do in the apartment. I have to say, not all the stains are coming out of the carpet, especially the raspberry vinaigrette that spilled on the carpet in the dining room. The pictures are all taken down. We still have up our Crucifixes, the calendars, the clock, and Peter’s decoration in his room.

When we figured out in April that we would be moving in the future, date unknown at that time, I made a checklist. We decided that we would move 8 weeks before our leave date. I’ve been looking and reading my checklist, and now I find myself behind. Or rather feeling like I’m behind. I think we will be fine, but today I’m in a little bit of a panic. After being away for two weeks, I feel like I want to snatch them back and hold tightly onto them in my fist. The days are slipping through like water and I know this will happen again before Jacob leaves. I’m putting part of my emotions of him leaving into this leave. It’s just one more step closer to him leaving.

Jacob has given his two weeks at work and lined up a part-time job in Hometown (we will both be signing up to sub in the school district). We have given notice to break our lease.

Peppered throughout the rest of the days are Zoo dates (elephant trainings and Lion bone days) we want to see. The last appointments crammed in, dates with friends, and Jacob’s work days. On top of that is still all the packing and cleaning that we need to do.

Change of address, returning items, disconnecting services. All of these things are swimming around in my head. Waiting for the day to do them.

I’m still on the 3 weeks before moving list… I looked at the 2 weeks before move list and whimper. I used to like moving. Before Peter was born, before I married Jacob. I could pack, clean and move within two days. Now it takes longer… much longer. 🙂

15 days… left in this town

In these 15 short days I will be doing a lot of lasts.

The last time I go to a La Leche League Meeting. The last time we go to the local Zoo. The last time we go to our favorite Park and ride the train. The last time going to Mass at our church, seeing the friends we’ve met and the students we’ve taught. The last time we go to the brother/sister in laws for supper or the last time they come over here to play. I will miss my Brother in law and my Sister in law, and I will miss seeing my nephew grow and my new niece be born in November.

I look forward to the all the friends I will met and seeing the old friends I have in hometown. To going to Mass in the church I grew up in, got Married in, and still love.

15 days. 15 days left in this town, and I find myself sad about leaving. I loved living in this town. Making the new friends that I have, going to La Leche League Meetings, and the memories of Peter from 6 months on.


Topeka, you’ve been good to us!

Busy Moving… er, Packing anyway

Peter and I spent the last 11 days in our future short-term home… My parent’s basement!

Though not the perfect situation, it will work out well for us until we find something to rent in town. Peter will be sharing my sister’s old bedroom with my nephew, who lives there part-time.

I spent the days watching Peter in the heat, sorting, trashing, Goodwill-ing, keeping all the totes I had in my Parent’s garage. I labeled the totes starting with a random 45 Please, Lord, Don’t let us pack 45 totes here in Topeka. I switched any boxes we still had left into totes. We had SEVEN seven?! 20 gallon totes that went to Goodwill. I was able to bring 4 totes back, the rest I left with Goodwill (they need totes too). Then promptly used them. I listed from 45 to 69 totes… that means that I sorted and kept 24 totes. I feel like I need to qualify that about 10 of them are smaller book totes. We have 14 packed at our apartment right now. So that is a total of 38 totes, to date! We really  haven’t started packing the nitty-gritty here in Topeka.

Even with all the decluttering and letting go that I’ve done, I still feel like we have too much material stuff. I will say that I have one 20 gallon tote for every town I’ve lived in (SIX!). Some of these things I don’t know how to let go, and sometimes I don’t want to let them go. I know that they will pretty much forever be stored in totes, but I can’t let them go. Maybe in a couple more years, but not right now. About half of the 14 totes in hometown contain items I used while teaching. I taught at a very low-income, school didn’t have money either, area. When I taught, I wasn’t married, I did live at home (at that time Jacob and I were engaged, seemed silly to move out for a year and then move again). So I had the ability to put a couple hundred dollars back into my classroom, each paycheck. Books, file folder games, supplies, food, and the list goes on. In fact, I spent so much money on the classroom that the second year I made a goal to only spend $50 per paycheck on the classroom.

I don’t want to throw away all the things I bought (8 totes of GOOD books), and feel that I will use them homeschooling Peter in a couple years. So I’m keeping those for sure, I sorted out material I thought was outdated and didn’t like.

I told Jacob that he shouldn’t feel like he needs to get rid of all his stuff, because even if he kept it all, it wouldn’t equal the amount I have in storage. He did go through and weed out items that he didn’t want anymore (for the two hours he was in the garage with me).

But I digress…

After sorting all the totes, my Dad and I loaded all of them, plus the two big furniture pieces and drove them to the town we want to live long-term (about 45 minutes away). Then unloaded it.

I also looked around at cell phones. We have Wal-Mart’s Straight Talk and it will not work were we are moving. Jacob and I can’t figure out what plan we want to get, or try to go no contract with a different phone. Our hometown area has bad coverage for cell phones, except for US Cellular, and they are expensive. We also know that internet isn’t fast at my parents, so should we get a really expensive phone that you can get online with? The questions keep coming. I don’t think we have figured out what we want to do, but we will in the next 16 days.

While I was home I went through my old bedroom. It had an odd combination of childhood, adult, married, momma life in it! From clothes that fit me 3 sizes ago, and probably won’t fit me again (size 5?! Um, no), to Peter’s bassinet! I rearranged the bedroom to give us the most space and living area (so we can have alone time in our bedroom).

Then I went into my sister’s room and took down all her childhood posters (I should note, it was with her permission!!) and helped my mom figure out where to put things. I think we have a working arrangement!

I also did random things, 4th of July parade, lunch with friends, and a couple small road trips. And I did most of this with a 2 year old in tow.

I realized something very important about myself. I think we will do okay when Jacob leaves for basic/tech school, but there will be more ups and downs with Peter’s behavior and because of that I need scheduled breaks.

I’m not talking about long periods of time, more along the lines of going to the gym for an hour by myself or a quiet couple hours just to get things done that are hard to do with a little shadow. And frankly, I want to go to the bathroom alone sometimes. 😉 My Momma and I talked a lot about schedules, boundaries, food, and cleaning while I was home and I think we came up with something that will work for us.


Moving ~I may die, less than a month!

28 days until we move.

Ironic to me that I’m not at our apartment! Peter and I are in Iowa! Helping my parents clean the three car garage and house. I have about 30 totes in there from when I was teaching. I have decluttered and donated 5 of them and am going to go through them again this week. The items that I do not get rid I’m doing a couple things to them.

1. I’m going to make sure like items are together.

2. I’m going to write down what is in every tote!

3. I’m going to number the outside of the tote.

4. I’m going to put that data together in an excel spreadsheet.

I’m doing these things because I’ve lived out of totes before. If I don’t know what’s in each tote, I can’t find it and use it. I don’t want to waste what we have because we can’t find it.

Once everything is numbered, I’m moving them all to storage. The same storage place we will be renting a moving a lot of our things to at the end of July.

I’ve already starting number totes at our apartment, I’m up to 14! Jacob is still at our apartment working, cleaning, and packing! We gave out notice to our Landlord and our HUGE, never going to get it done in time cleaning list.

My sister’s old room is being a temporary room for Peter and his cousin (that also lives with my parents part-time).

moving countdown, starts now.

I have six weeks to pack up our apartment and move. We are going to move in with my parents until a place opens up in our Hometown. This means condensing our two bedroom apartment into my old bedroom and the playroom. I would like to live a more minimalist life, mainly because I hate dusting.

The thing is, we are still living in totes from the last move 15 months ago. We own things that will come in handy once we have a house and visitors. However, we’re not needing it right now. I go back and forth of selling or Goodwilling many of our things or keeping them because we don’t have the money to buy them once we are on our own again.

I have gone through all the totes in our apartment and decluttered 3 totes worth. We have 14 totes left of things that I think we should keep. 3 of those totes are Christmas totes. 4 of those totes are Peter’s baby clothes that we are keeping for the next kiddo. 2 are decorations that I’ve already put away… plus more. 🙂
Oh also in those 6 short weeks, I have to drive up to Hometown and help my parents get ready on their end (probably for a week), have my BFF come and visit for 4 days, and my niece come and visit for 3 days… So really, I have 4 weeks at home to get ready to go.


What do you think? Storage fees for 10 months or less, or getting rid and buying new (to us) later?

What would be your ‘have to haves’ while living in one bedroom?