Weight Loss and Wine

I’ve decided to combine two things, thus the post title.

Some days a glass or two of wine will make everything okay (disclaimer: alcoholism is not good and all that jazz, I agree).

I talked to my Mom, who is pretty much the best person in the world, really, and she said I should be able to lose 15 pounds between yesterday and Feb 1st. That’s THREE weeks. Averaging 5 pounds a week, it’s a lot and usually not recommended, but I think I can do it.

I feel hopeful and it’s not just the wine talking.

The things that are holding me back from MAJOR weight loss is emotional baggage I need to let go or resolve. I’ve decided to do it tonight with glass bottle of wine. My Mom is having Peter sleep upstairs with her while I wrestle with this and I’m grateful to be able to have this chance. I know Peter is safe and sometimes I can be franker (franker… is that a word?) with myself with some wine.

While I know it’s some what of the easy way out… I’m okay with it. As long as I’m facing it.

What do you need to face that you’ve been putting off? Join me on this reflective look at ourselves.

And hey, free wine. 😉

And yes.. that’s a water glass. Don’t judge me. LOL

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Routines: Who has them?

Routines.

For the second time in our married life, I’m finally on a daily routine again (The first one lasted 6 months, when Jacob had a steady work schedule).

YES! I’m finally finding something that works for me! I didn’t find it on a blog (though some have some really good ideas), but the simple pen to paper mode.

For numerous days I wrote down what we did and when. Then I gauged what I wanted to do each day and when. I started to slowly move things around. This is the final result. The only thing I haven’t done yet is the thing I want to do most (Isn’t that just life?!), praying in the morning.

 

Non-working Days (no substitute teaching)

6:30-7:00 – Prayer time/ Peter watch TV or join in, if up

7:00 -7:30 – Shower (with Peter most days), Quick swipe of make-up, take the wetness out of the hair and leave it damp, and dress to my shoes for the day

7:30 – 8:00(ish) – Make, Eat, and Clean up Breakfast (I like making a weeks worth of food on one day and freezing the rest for the week to come)

8:00 – 11:15 – Open*

11:15 -12:00 – Make, Eat, and Clean up Lunch

12:00 – 1:30 – Read a couple books with Peter/Quiet Time/ Nap-time

1:30 – 5:00 – Open*

5:00 -6:00 – Supper (my Mom cooks most days: Score for me)

6:00 – 7:00 – Open*

7:00 – 7:30 – Clean up rooms, Chores, Books, Prayers, Bedtime clothes and Peter in bed for the night (watching an episode of Curious George, if needed)

7:30- 10:00 PM-  ME TIME!  Sunday, Tuesday, and Friday my Mom will listen for Peter while I go to the gym! Monday and Thursday is Craft time. Wednesday and Saturday are zone out nights.

7:30 PM – 5:30 AM – The goal is to have Peter in his room this whole time so I can get a good night’s sleep

 

The “Open” parts of the day I actually have something in mind. However, I’m not going to go all out right away, because I don’t want to get overwhelmed. Now it’s just random: computer time, play time in Peter’s room, Price’s Right, play time at friend’s house, Gym time at the Community Center with Peter, School time, and random craft.

Ideally, I would like the first chunk of time to be just for school. The second chunk of time to be just for outside/Gym time play and/or  hang out with friends. The last chunk of time to be for family interaction time with Peter. Ideally.

If I don’t get to it, no biggie, because my New Year’s Resolution is to be kinder to myself.

The second part of this is getting Peter to sleep in his bed all night. He wakes up every night at 1AM. He has since the dawn of time. Seriously. It’s almost clockwork. Jacob and I would just bring him into bed with us, but I’m having issues with him turning sideways and kicking me while he sleeps . It’s a new thing and I’m not a fan. So I decided I’m fine with him getting into bed with me at 5:30 AM because he will sleep longer in the morning if I’m in the same room. However, I have to get up and go back and forth between my room and his A LOT lately. Which means I’m not getting as much sleep as I want. In the long run, I will get more sleep. ::repeats to self, I will get more sleep:: Last night I was in and out of his room a dozen times. I counted. Between 1 and 2 AM was 8 times and between 4 and 5 AM was 4 times. I let him get into bed with me at 5AM.

This is what Peter looks like at 8PM. So cute with his Monkey and Crucifix.

Since I’m not getting as much sleep, I’m having problems getting up before him to pray. As in, I haven’t done it yet. This is also because I’m having problems getting in bed at 10PM. I need to start to go to sleep at 10PM because I know me and how much sleep I need. A massive amount.

So it’s a work in progress, but I like the way we are going. Things are clicking along better for us and the days are shorter because we are busy instead of just floating along. Meaning: Closer to see Jacob!!

Meanwhile: Anyone have any tips on having Peter say goodbye to Jacob a second time? I have a feeling it’s going to be harder than the first time.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

New Years

I know all around the world people are making resolutions and doing new things. I feel like I’m hoping that train.

 

This year, 2012, I’m going to do THREE things:

  1. Be kinder to myself.
  2. Practice positive self talk.
  3. When life overwhelms me, I’ll take a breath and continue on the path God as directed our family

 

It doesn’t seem like much, but that’s what I’m doing. 🙂

I have to admit

Blogging is not a priority right now.

Jacob is leaving next month for basic. Time sees so fleeting right now. I’m really trying to focus my time and energy into my family.

 

Some updates for us:

Jacob has Drill this weekend.

We rode on Amtrak this past weekend! Peter loved it!

Peter trick or treated for the first time yesterday and really enjoyed it. He hid his face every time he sees something scary. He would duck his head into Jacob’s neck. How I wish I could just be carried and I could hid away from my fears like a two year old.

I’m going slowly on the weight loss, but I’m STILL losing, and that’s the point. I’m at 209.4 pounds today! That’s a loss of 9 pounds this month! I’ll take it! 207 is my 10% goal! Whoop-whoop! I’m going to make my family clap for me (because I need that feedback).

Peter is growing and pushing boundaries. It’s amazing to see how his brain works, but because of this growth… he’s seen a lot of time-out lately. In fact, he’s seen so much time-out that he put one of his Army Man in Time-out for shooting another Army Man (that was funny).

Peter can hop on one foot, multiple times. He’s two and a half! That’s some mad skills for him.

He’s really into cutting with scissors right now. So much so, we have to hid the scissors.

Today Peter was telling me a story while I was busy fixing lunch. I had to stop and give him my full attention when he told me to, “Look at me (pointed to his face) in the eyes.” Something that we say to him when we have something important to say. So funny, sweet, and serious.

Our dog is staying with a family friend until Jacob comes back. We said goodbye to him this past weekend. If he gets along really well with them, he may stay with them forever. We’re a little sad about it.

I’m going down to Topeka next week to stay with our BIL, SIL, and nephew. SIL is 38 weeks pregnant and I’m going to come down and clean and do whatever she wants for two days. This is also my last big break from Peter before Jacob leaves and is only the three time I’ve left him this long!

Peter is going to test out a back up daycare this week. We are just going to visit the first time, leave for an hour the second time, 4 hours the next time, and then full day after that. I’m hoping for a smooth transition.

Tomorrow is the next ICAN meeting. ::sigh:: I love ICAN, but hate it all at once. I love it’s a safe place to talk about Peter’s birth, I hate that it’s a monthly reminder of the c-section and it’s still really painful to me. Tomorrow is also a little nerve-racking because I’m going to verbally tell Peter’s birth story out loud… hopefully… if I don’t pass out first. ::weak smile::

We are buying our Christmas presents now. We want to have everything done before Jacob leaves December 7th. We will be celebrating St. Nicholas’ feast day this year (December 6th), instead of Santa Claus.

We are talking of holiday plans and letting family members know of our plans, so it’s not surprising when Jacob’s gone.

We are also discussing Jacob’s leave date. Who’s going to the airport, where we are going to say goodbye, how we are going to explain to Peter…

I’ve been crying a lot lately. A lot. I feel overly emotional about everything right now.

We got an iPod and I’m in LOVE. Seriously love this product.

Jacob and I are participating in a Bible Study about the new translations of the Mass. I’m really enjoying it! I’m also glad it’s only 5 weeks so Jacob and I could go together and have it finished before he leaves.

 

 

That’s some highlights about us for now. I’m hoping to have another photo post soon! We’ve been taking a lot of photos lately!

 

Have I talked about weight yet?

blah. Weight.

I’ll use my real numbers. Which is Hardcore! I think at my smallest I was 138 pounds. I was exercising about 4 hours again and eating from a South Beach Diet. It was a diet that I wouldn’t be able to maintain. I moved and there wasn’t a gym (or the awesome YMCA that I had) and I had troubles with not stress/emotionally eating.

I met Jacob and started dating him and we both became a little lax with our exercising and eating well. We ate out a lot of meals or ordered Pizza to go with our movies. So we gained weight, Jacob at a slower pace than me.

On our wedding day I weighed 175.

I felt wonderful: Graceful, Beautiful, and Lovely.

Then I got the photos. I looked at every flaw, the double chin, the arm flab, and back overflow.

When I gave birth to Peter my weight climbed to an unhealthy 228.

That’s where I stayed. I dropped 15 pounds within two weeks of giving birth to Peter. I had a lot of water weight that fell off as the swelling went down. The next two years of his life I went back and forth between that 15 pounds range.

In February I started Weight Watchers (my Aunt paid my membership for my birthday present). My starting weight was 228. I wanted to slowly drop weight to be at a healthy starting weight when we became pregnant again. I was on Weight Watchers (WW) for three months. During this time Jacob started talking about joining the military and I had a lot of emotional what-happens-if-he-never-comes-back eating. I lost 7 pounds in those three months. I’m proud of those 7 pounds. They were hard earned and lost during a stressful time.

I then had bad gallbladder attacks. And a couple more attacks. To the point where I was scared to eat and be in the horrible pain again. I lost 13 pounds in two weeks. Man that was NOT the way I wanted to lose weight. Since I dropped the 13 pounds so quickly I gained most back: from, you know, eating.

I joined up again with WW two weeks ago. I started at 218. I have a goal weight in mind. I would like to be at 185 for Jacob’s Basic Graduation. I think I would feel great! That’s losing 32 pounds between now and then. I can do it. I have a buddy that I’m checking in with throughout the day. I’m at 214.4 today and I’m happy to be actively doing something about my weight instead of just being miserable about it.

Jacob has been gently encouraging me, and I have the support to succeed. I’m hoping to check in every week with three things: What went well (and I want to remember to do again), what I need to change, and my weight for the week.

Sometimes I get a little overwhelmed with the big numbers so it’s broken down to 5% loss and 10% loss, one mini goal weight, and then my 184. With each one I hope to gain a little more momentum. I just reached my 5% goal and I’m so excited! Gives me hope that I can do this.