57 days

I just counted it out. 57 days until Jacob leaves. Sounds like a long time.

 

57 days = 8 weeks

57 days = 4 pay periods

57 days, long enough to attend a 5 week Bible Study class with Jacob.

57 days, long enough to go on one more family vacation.

57 days, long enough to figure out travel plans while he’s gone.

57 days, too long to really have Peter fully explain when Daddy is leaving, why, and when he will come back.

57 days of co-parenting until he leaves.

 

57 days pales in the 260 days that Jacob will be gone.

Sometimes I know and understand that Jacob being gone at Basic and Tech school is nothing when you think about family members going off for a year deployment and facing danger. Jacob should be safe the time he’s gone. I take comfort in that today.

 

 

Advertisements

Have I talked about weight yet?

blah. Weight.

I’ll use my real numbers. Which is Hardcore! I think at my smallest I was 138 pounds. I was exercising about 4 hours again and eating from a South Beach Diet. It was a diet that I wouldn’t be able to maintain. I moved and there wasn’t a gym (or the awesome YMCA that I had) and I had troubles with not stress/emotionally eating.

I met Jacob and started dating him and we both became a little lax with our exercising and eating well. We ate out a lot of meals or ordered Pizza to go with our movies. So we gained weight, Jacob at a slower pace than me.

On our wedding day I weighed 175.

I felt wonderful: Graceful, Beautiful, and Lovely.

Then I got the photos. I looked at every flaw, the double chin, the arm flab, and back overflow.

When I gave birth to Peter my weight climbed to an unhealthy 228.

That’s where I stayed. I dropped 15 pounds within two weeks of giving birth to Peter. I had a lot of water weight that fell off as the swelling went down. The next two years of his life I went back and forth between that 15 pounds range.

In February I started Weight Watchers (my Aunt paid my membership for my birthday present). My starting weight was 228. I wanted to slowly drop weight to be at a healthy starting weight when we became pregnant again. I was on Weight Watchers (WW) for three months. During this time Jacob started talking about joining the military and I had a lot of emotional what-happens-if-he-never-comes-back eating. I lost 7 pounds in those three months. I’m proud of those 7 pounds. They were hard earned and lost during a stressful time.

I then had bad gallbladder attacks. And a couple more attacks. To the point where I was scared to eat and be in the horrible pain again. I lost 13 pounds in two weeks. Man that was NOT the way I wanted to lose weight. Since I dropped the 13 pounds so quickly I gained most back: from, you know, eating.

I joined up again with WW two weeks ago. I started at 218. I have a goal weight in mind. I would like to be at 185 for Jacob’s Basic Graduation. I think I would feel great! That’s losing 32 pounds between now and then. I can do it. I have a buddy that I’m checking in with throughout the day. I’m at 214.4 today and I’m happy to be actively doing something about my weight instead of just being miserable about it.

Jacob has been gently encouraging me, and I have the support to succeed. I’m hoping to check in every week with three things: What went well (and I want to remember to do again), what I need to change, and my weight for the week.

Sometimes I get a little overwhelmed with the big numbers so it’s broken down to 5% loss and 10% loss, one mini goal weight, and then my 184. With each one I hope to gain a little more momentum. I just reached my 5% goal and I’m so excited! Gives me hope that I can do this.

Tot School drop out?

Ideally. Ideally.

Ideally, I would like to be able to have Tot School from 3-5 days a week and for 1-3 hours per session. However, life is moving really fast right now and I know that this is just an extra. It’s the thing in our life that can give without any discord.

He loves the school we do together and I will be keeping some of the activities that we have done.

Things that are staying:

Sensory Tub ~He loves this and so do I

Themed Books ~I’m still going to check out a bunch of books at the beginning of the month and put them through a rotation and read with him

Tot Trays ~These are activities that I have already have planned and have resources for, so we are going to just do these on days we are just staying home (no appointments, work, or deadlines)

Things that are leaving:

File Folder games ~We can use these in future years, so I don’t feel bad for making some now

Worksheets ~I wasn’t able to keep up and it felt like a chore

Schedule ~I’m fine doing school activities when the mood strikes us or Peter asks for them
And this is how Peter became a Tot School drop out, but don’t worry. He’ll be back.

Busy times

I’m not big about photos in posts because I forget to take them off my camera in a timely manner. Since moving this is what we have been doing.

 

We have gone to the Zoo twice. We love it and plan on getting a membership!

If you can tell, Peter likes to draw with markers (the marks on arm), play the Wii, and sleep without clothes in our bed.

Science Center of Iowa! Peter was so excited for the Birthday Party!

Best buddies

Turtles hatched! I didn’t know their shell was soft!

Daddy holding paper for Peter to cut with Scissors! (first time with scissors)

Peter’s First Day of Tot School

Use your imagination and just turn your head. I forgot to move to the correct way. 😀

Peter is such the poser and loved school.

Break time with Daddy! Shared a doughnut and milk.

Not included are the Drill Weekends, Time outs, Cuddle time, Reading Books, Play Dates with new (and old) friends, Mommy (me) starting to Substitute again, and playing outside all the time!

We are super busy and I don’t know when we are going to slow down.